Post by geordiegirl on Aug 8, 2023 13:10:16 GMT -5
Nobody is going to read this, and I can't post this stuff on my "real" blog so here goes.
Yeah, I am obsessed with MST3K because I feel alone.
Since my mum died, I have no family. Yeah, I have my partner and friends, but it's not the same. My abandonment issues mean I constantly worry that, one day, they will leave me.
I have no one in my life who knew me as a kid. Knew how much I was obsessed with Kylie or even anyone who knew my grandma anymore.
And then I have work. I've spent a year building up friendships and skills and then, in less than 2 months, I'm losing my jobs which mean I'll lose my work friendships.
And I feel that I'm just out of place anywhere. I feel I don't belong anywhere.
Even here. I look at old posts, and see some "fangirls" (fangirl fever looked a hoot) posts and I wish I was in the fandom then. Just maybe make a friend in the fandom. I know there's guys on the board, but it's not the same as having a girlie friend who is into the same stuff I am.
Anyway, just me ranting. But yeah, a guy trapped in space, isolated from the world is exactly how I feel. But I'm still on earth, feeling isolated.
Yeah, I am obsessed with MST3K because I feel alone.
Since my mum died, I have no family. Yeah, I have my partner and friends, but it's not the same. My abandonment issues mean I constantly worry that, one day, they will leave me.
I have no one in my life who knew me as a kid. Knew how much I was obsessed with Kylie or even anyone who knew my grandma anymore.
And then I have work. I've spent a year building up friendships and skills and then, in less than 2 months, I'm losing my jobs which mean I'll lose my work friendships.
And I feel that I'm just out of place anywhere. I feel I don't belong anywhere.
Even here. I look at old posts, and see some "fangirls" (fangirl fever looked a hoot) posts and I wish I was in the fandom then. Just maybe make a friend in the fandom. I know there's guys on the board, but it's not the same as having a girlie friend who is into the same stuff I am.
Anyway, just me ranting. But yeah, a guy trapped in space, isolated from the world is exactly how I feel. But I'm still on earth, feeling isolated.