Post by Emperor Cupcake on Apr 26, 2012 23:04:00 GMT -5
I was reflecting recently about how much my life has drastically changed in the past two years (mostly for the better, I hasten to add). And out of curiosity, I went back and read some of my old posts on this very forum. In a post dated July 1, 2010, I had written:
"So lately I've been going through a kinda emotional roller coaster type deal, which usually doesn't happen to me, I hasten to add. I've been married fifteen years and have never even thought of straying. But a few weeks ago I developed a completely uncontrollable and wholly ill-advised infatuation with a new friend of mine, and man, I have never felt ANYTHING like it before. It's so intense I'm not really sure what to do about it, and I've been so distracted for the past few weeks I can hardly get anything done...I'm in trouble, aren't I?"
The reason this struck me so profoundly was because 1. I remember the intensity of those feelings as though it was yesterday, probably because to a large extent I still feel them, and 2. A few months after I wrote that, I ended up divorcing my husband of fifteen years because of the feelings for my "friend" (whose name is Tom; I've posted pix of him and me on here), and after many months of strange friendship, both of us dating other people, and so forth, Tom and I have now been together as a couple for more than 9 months, we're moving in together at the beginning of June, and he makes me happier than anyone has made me in my whole entire life, ever. Most of my friends have commented to me how much happier I am now, that they can just see it in my face. I guess I never realized how unhappy I was before until I got out of my marriage and into a relationship that's actually healthy. I have to admit there were many, MANY times when I thought the whole thing wasn't going to work out, but I am eternally thankful that it did.
Not to mention the fact that since my divorce, I have moved to Orlando, lost nearly a hundred pounds, and expanded my circle of friends to a massive degree, so much so that now when my boyfriend and I go out to the clubs, we literally know every single person there; we're like the acknowledged king and queen of the Orlando goth/industrial scene, haha. Quite a big difference from the chubby wallflower I've been pretty much my entire life. It's a strange thing, and I don't know why I felt compelled to post it on here really, but it's just something that's been very much on my mind the past few months, how two years ago when I originally wrote the above, I never could have imagined things working out the way they did. Life is funny sometimes.
Please share your own examples, positive or negative, won't you?
:-)
"So lately I've been going through a kinda emotional roller coaster type deal, which usually doesn't happen to me, I hasten to add. I've been married fifteen years and have never even thought of straying. But a few weeks ago I developed a completely uncontrollable and wholly ill-advised infatuation with a new friend of mine, and man, I have never felt ANYTHING like it before. It's so intense I'm not really sure what to do about it, and I've been so distracted for the past few weeks I can hardly get anything done...I'm in trouble, aren't I?"
The reason this struck me so profoundly was because 1. I remember the intensity of those feelings as though it was yesterday, probably because to a large extent I still feel them, and 2. A few months after I wrote that, I ended up divorcing my husband of fifteen years because of the feelings for my "friend" (whose name is Tom; I've posted pix of him and me on here), and after many months of strange friendship, both of us dating other people, and so forth, Tom and I have now been together as a couple for more than 9 months, we're moving in together at the beginning of June, and he makes me happier than anyone has made me in my whole entire life, ever. Most of my friends have commented to me how much happier I am now, that they can just see it in my face. I guess I never realized how unhappy I was before until I got out of my marriage and into a relationship that's actually healthy. I have to admit there were many, MANY times when I thought the whole thing wasn't going to work out, but I am eternally thankful that it did.
Not to mention the fact that since my divorce, I have moved to Orlando, lost nearly a hundred pounds, and expanded my circle of friends to a massive degree, so much so that now when my boyfriend and I go out to the clubs, we literally know every single person there; we're like the acknowledged king and queen of the Orlando goth/industrial scene, haha. Quite a big difference from the chubby wallflower I've been pretty much my entire life. It's a strange thing, and I don't know why I felt compelled to post it on here really, but it's just something that's been very much on my mind the past few months, how two years ago when I originally wrote the above, I never could have imagined things working out the way they did. Life is funny sometimes.
Please share your own examples, positive or negative, won't you?
:-)